You may be at a bus stop waiting for a bus;
or at the MRT platform waiting for the train;
or at the lift lobby waiting for the lift;
or eating dinner at the dining table;
or in front of the computer surfing the web....
You are waiting for that somebody to message you
but you know he/she has something much more interesting to do than to message you.
Suddenly your phone buzzes and lights up, indicating the arrival of a new message
you open it with much anticipation
too bad it was a mundane one - work related/ spam etc.
you read it, you may or may not reply to it
then you return to your previous state of sitting around.
You start to ponder how the last conversation went with that somebody
did you appear too desperate?
did you appear too dull?
did you appear too nonchalant?
This post is not an inspirational one to ask you to get off your butt and start taking initiative
this post is just to let you know that you are not alone
with billions of people around the world, you will never be alone.
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I'll admit that I'm often guilty of the above
and I usually won't take initiative
mostly because I don't have an interesting topic to start off with
or maybe I don't want to seem creepy by starting off with a random topic in the middle of the day.
All I want to say is: I miss you.
& your: we will never meet again. (or something similar...) still rings in my ears, because nobody has ever said that to me out loud, and the very sentence is so true that it haunts me. Not because I'm sad of our parting, but because I have never put enough thought to partings until now.
I did consider if there should be an "us"
but I know that I have nothing to offer as a significant other
not when I am so far away from home.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get attached
attached not because we're lonely on this earth
but attached because we're ready to make it work
#WishfulThinking
If we ever meet again
I'll have so much more to say